Have I told you lately how much you’ve grown? It seems like everyday your growing taller and leaving your toddler years further and further behind you.
Every time I gain the chance of you running up and climbing into my lap... I grab ahold of that moment and squeeze tight, hoping if I don’t let go you will stay little a while longer.
Recently I was talking with another Mom, saying “I’m having issues imagining you older, taller, grown....” but here it is happening right in front of me!
3 years ago I was drowning in the what if’s. I didn’t know how you would progress and what your future looked liked. There were so many questions.
But during those moments, you always seemed to know. So you would climb upon my lap and lay your sweet baby boy head on my chest. You would just lay there, quietly, contented, like you were waiting for my dark sad moment to pass along with me.
Today, I was having a dark and sad moment. You knew. You always know. You did what you always do, climb upon my lap and lay quietly.
When the moment passed, I looked at you as if the dark haze had went away with the sight of your sweet smile. I cried and said, “you will always have a place upon my lap, even when your too big, I will always let you come and sit for a while.
Please remember my sweet baby boy, you are my little sunshine, you bring light into my darkest moments, you are love, you are beauty, you are my everything.
I love you my sweet Sawyer.
Love, Mommy 💙
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